have a good day!:)

Demotivate

sejak akhir2 nih aku asek emo jeh
more to demotivate actually
rase macam kononnye kau sorg lah yg ditimpa kan ujian paling berat dalam dunia nih
And if at workplace, you have to give it your all and try to solve a problem yg dah berakar tunjang since the company is built, and you got no support from other parties.
Its not easy when you live in a town surrounded by a skyscraper. The barrier is too huge. I don't understand why it should be happened that way. Well, for me, in a company, u need a specialist in all areas to ensure u can move forward. But whenever u encounter a problem, n u need their specialties, automatically it becomes a FAVOR. which mean, this is not supposed to be my job n i'm just doing it for the sake of helping you. what the heck? so, i was demotivate.
I went back home, but no one's is there.. I cried the whole night.
It continues for several days. Until one day i realized, only God knows how difficult it was. But did i ask help from Him? I was too busy chasing 'life' when actually i creating my own shadow. Why should i demotivate over a small matter? kecewa bila di tolak. Buat ape bergantung kepada makhluk sedangkan Allah maha berkuasa menentukan segalanye.

After a while, i look for a new hobby. I bought few novels and i watch same movies on astro repeatedly. I email my better half more frequent in a day. Alhamdulillah. i learn to get used to it.

" And when u went through the hardest time in your life, just remember that this too will passed."

current sunday routine

just thought this old song might cherish some old memories.

missing my other half badly.

So..blogger.com has changed ek?
and this is 2012
and i am married:)
and of course with the same guy i keep on mentioning before.haha!
Thanks A LOT for those who coming to our wedding,
you guys are really made our days:)

Alhamdulillah..we started to live together
in a mean of a very independent & humble life
and trying to suit each other well
we are quite struggling at first-for sure
i would say argument is a must!
but i enjoy my life now:)
really grateful for this beautiful gift ever!
Thank you Allah.
n Thank you husband!
for marrying me:)

almost fell.just let me fall.

hati mana yg tak terasa

mata mana yg tak menangis

i will stop counting

and let the time take its course

bersabarlah duhai hati

drowning

today is just like a never-ending day

i'm totally,really exhausted!! n pissed off!

just because u have a status or rank or whatever weirdo thing u've been proud of,

that doesn't mean u can yelled at others u monkey!

ohh i really feels like smacking those ill-bred stink mouth at once

n sambil nyanyi lagu bengang akim af7 even salah lirik

pantang betol keturunan aku dgr org menengking2 tak tentu hala nih

kalau ponn muke aku cam pecah rumah sekali ponn tak boleh ka tanya 'cik penah pecah rumah org ka' n sure aku jawab 'waklu!!'

n sebab betapa tak profesional nye aku,

aku sekali lagi emo tak tentu hala juga

i am lucky:)

please slapped me if i ever sigh again..

to think back everything dat ever happened to me, i consider myself as LUCKY.

i worked hard, i still laugh hard. i cry a lot, i have a lot more shoulders to lean on.

i easily get mad, but my blood pressure still normal what.

if in one whole day we still have water to bath, shoes to wear, food to eat, friends to chill up, why get mad if a bunch of flies, flies around? they have to fly to continue their lives!

sumtimes people can be very annoyed..like they dun have anything goods in life other than makes our life miserable.but how far they can go? well, at least u wont die of the annoying-ness rite?maybe its their nature.so why let one bad apple spoils the whole basket?bad apples stays rotten,dun eat them,take a good one, and leave. you wont get sick. smile makes u feel so good:)

be grateful makes u feel that you are not alone. you are born with a reason. lets stay focus & insyaAllah,God will lead us the way.

P/s : thank YOU, i had the very best day in my life:)

how lucky i am?;)

i seriously need sum rest

maybe dis time will be a long one..

for everyone's good.

Buhsan Di Office Sekarang

tired.sumbody please hire me!
hahah..itulah perangai..da tensen sket carik nk carik keje baru..
tak reti bersyukur langsung..
cube lah muhasabah diri ok khasanah!

" then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?"

so pls be strong!and grateful for every little second you breath..
there must be a reason why you were born...
n why you are still working here T___T

Regards,

-office-

a friend's reminder

its a shamed

yet its a bless

how i wish the sky stays blue,

i'm grateful for the bright rainbows after the storm

thank you.so much.

BAD PEOPLE

i never thought sumtimes life wud be dis difficult.

VERY difficult..

handling machine is one thing,but handling people is harder!

thats why bos cakap, lets not call them bad people lah

actually they are so-call 'difficult people'

u have to noe how to handle this kind of people

but to do dat,u must have enuf experience, n knowledge.

yup.tp aku org baru bos.

camane nak setaraf dgn dis 'difficult people'?

sampai bile asek nak tahan panas telinga kne maki hamun depan org ramai?

aku ponn ade maruah:'(

one great man penah cakap;

'we all have people we dun like.dat does things dat we dun like.

and wut i have found is no one is pure evil.

if u wait long enuf,they will show u their gud side.

u can't make them doin it in a hurry.but u can be patience.'

sgt betul!

but its been 7month!

how long shud i wait??

they are toooo bbbbbb uhhh! DIFFICULT!

ww=weak week

will young's fit me perfectly today

i think i better leave right now.

before i fall any deeper.

will u marry me?

why flowers are red?

why leaves are green?

why i was born?

why tears falling?

why heart racing?

why earth one?

why i feel like none?

thank you:')

THANK YOU

ALL OF YOU ARE THE REASON FOR ME TO LIVE

THANK YOU ALLAH

THANK YOU PEOPLE

THANK YOU SO MUCH!:')

orang kampung

mungkin entry kali ini agak emosi.

sila jgn baca jika anda anda seorang yg beremosi..

org slalu cakap,'jage sket tingkah laku tuh,nnti org kg nampak cakap ape pulak'

pastu kalau hebat sket,risau tershow off sket,nnti org kg mengate..

kalau balik ngn bf ponn da jadik bualan org kg..

bergosip tak hengat walhal lagi bagus ade org mnghantar selamat sampai ke rumah drpada jadik ape2 di tgh jalan..itu cume pendapatku..tapi yg salah,tetap lah salah..itu aku mengaku..

tp ape ponn,hey aku ponn org kampung jugak.

lahir di kampung,mmbesar di kampung..

tak penah heran kau nak pakai mercedes brape series ponn aku tak kesah..

maybe kalau kau bawak kete kebal,aku akan mengate'wah hebat,nak tumpang buleh?'

tp sejak duduk di tempat baru nih,mngaku aku hanye mnumpang di tempat org..

dduk ponn umah sewa..

kami bekerja ponn pakai baju kilang,org ponn da label minah kilang.

tp ape dose aku keje kilang?

even tak kesah lah position aku manager or operator,takkan kau nak cap yg minah kilang nih sosial tak hengat.bahaye kalau bercampur ngn org kg.hey,kerja halal kot!

fine fine fine,takan la pulak nak cap kat dahi nih,aku engineer beb,baju nih kilang bagi so aku pakai jelah so jgn pandang aku macam tu buleh?

tp perluke semua tuh?

sipolan cakap org kampung da mule mengate pasal kami.

tp aku tgk macik2 sbelah umah kami slalu jeh menghanta kuih bukak puase kat kami.

so siapakah 'org kg yg mengate itu'??

atau sipolan itu sendiri?

adeh..seyes aku tak faham.

mmg perlu hidup bermasyarakat.

tp masyarakat yg pandang hina perempuan minah kilang macam kami nih

jadi bagaimana?

nasihat cume satu,

sebelum berkata ape,pandang lah diri sendiri dahulu.

mahu betulkan tingkap rumah org,pandang lah tingkap sendiri dahulu,mungkin tak perasan retak di mane2..

manusia tidak sempurna.

itu utk aku,dan kau juga.

noon blues~

too much to think sumtimes make me afraid to ever think to think again..
assumption and prediction always depleted.
shud i run away
or shud i stay?

ADULT

lately badan da semakin tak mengikut arahan..
i need more caffeine!

-SPECIAL ENTRY-

AHMAD SYARIF AL ANSHARI,

I'm so glad u're back

even janji 6month meleret sampai 7bulan,

i da fikir masak2,

AND u're forgiven;)

and for our new sunshine,

auntie can't wait to c u!;p

congrate to mummy yun n daddy ben;)

aku gadis kilang versi 2010

rase lawak pulak last2 bersambung balik kisah gadis kilang kembali ke kilang;)

tp kali nih siap ade uniform lagi nyah.kelas gitu!;p

tp kali nih gadis kilang rase agak sket blur but not yet soo stress..

buleh la tahan keje kat sini.(sini itu bayan lepas)

hidup baru dan kilang baru,muge2 sume ok..

yelah makin besar nih,makin besar jugak tanggung jawab..

pikul jgn tak pikul.

sekian utk kali ini.

-before g keje.pic credit to izyansyamimi-

world isn't greed..men are!

saturday
5 june2010
1.00am

its been a week since balik dr tgk atok kat hospital..
her condition is not too bad but still not too good to relieved..
tp smlm mak cakap sudah discharged..
muge2 atok ok2 sahaje..
its a fact dat we must accept..
ade mase kite gembira,ade mase kte menanges,
ade mase sihat,ade mase saket,
mybe sok luse waktu kite,no one knows..

talkin about atok, ders one thing i regret the most..
yg sehat, tak pernah nak beringat..

las week ktrg pegi nak tgk atok..
waktu tuh jln cam biase,tak sebuk sgt,tak clear sgt..
hosp private kt area pekeliling..
kat simpang jln after national libry,kete kami kene tahan dgn si baju putih..
owhh..knapa kah?
tak pakai seatbelt ke?
abg ipar kalut2 kuar..haihh..asal la kau kalut sgt nk kuar..cool sudah..

"encik tak buleh lalu jalan nih"

"mintak maaf la encik,kami nk cepat nih,nak pegi lawat nenek sakit kat hosp,istri sy pulak tu mengandung" (huh ade pulak bg alasan wife pregnant?baru bape bulan kot..tak logik!)

drg dok discuss2 even sampai skrg aku pikir asal takleh lalu jln tuh sbb tader satu signboard ponn tules no entry ke,takleh lalu ke,gajah melintas ke,ahh ngarut lah..tp sbbkan mereka beruniform maka terpakse lah kami berhenti jugak.lah da kne tahan kot..tader lah besar mane ponn cite nih sampai lah drg ckap;

"abes tu mcm mane?kami ponn nk duit kopi nih"

aduh..menyirap aku dgr.

"bukan sy taknak bg encik.tapi mmg tak leh bg.encik nak saman pon samanlah"

first time rase nk salute kat abg ipar..even kau mcam kalut seyes mmg bijak jawapan tuh..kalau sehari dorg tahan 1o kete,n every person kasik plg kurang rm5o "duit kopi",sebulan bape dah?u guys the shining n brilliant star, pls do the math..n kire skalik darah yg mengalir hasil duit kopi dalam badan..n gune pulak utk besarkan anak2...keturunan..jadi darah daging kan?selebihnye,aku sendirik insan lemah tak pasti ape yg akan jadik..cumenye,msg2 ade akal,gunelah..otak jgn harap simpan dalam helmet jeh..kalau bukan fikir utk diri sendirik,pikirlah pasal anak2 dan isteri kat umah..drg tak bersalah.tak berhak diberi nafkah dgn "duit kopi"..

haiihh..ape yg aku emo sgt nih?maybe sbb poket sendirik tgh kosong kot,ni kan pulak nk kasik org minom kopi T____T